Who I am: The Queen

26 May

I’m a lover, I’m a fighter

I’m a saint, I’m a sinner, I’m a lover

Basically I’m just a human being, yeah

Being who I wanna be

That’s who I am

– Bilal/Who Are You/ Airtight’s Revenge –

I start my very first blog post by asking myself, Who am I? My mind starts to go in circles, trying to characterize what embodies the one we call ‘The Queen’. Music usually gives me inspiration, so I quickly hit the Itunes icon on my dock. I wait a second. Still thinking…. WHO THE HELL AM I? Warning: This is my blog and I will speak the way I like. Don’t read it if you don’t like my word usage. Okay. So I have just figured out that I am pretty direct! Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, an epiphany has just been made. It’s up! Itunes people… come on… you are entering The Queen’s mind, keep up. I go to the upper right corner where the search is and I enter… WHO. What pops up…

12 Jill Scott songs…. I love her…

Van Hunt’s Who will love me in winter…. Dang it… I cannot think about who will love me ever…. My heart is not ready for the demands of my mind and body. I am a 25, almost 26 year old virgin whose hormones are RAGING out of control. So BUMP this song. Its not about Who I am… it beautifully articulates how I feel about my *I don’t think it’s appropriate* side (another post…. Can you feel it? Like my hormones through your computer screen lol ) I digress…

Musiq’s Who Knows… The first song on my wedding night CD… NEXT (moving on because this can go somewhere we alllll know The Queen can’t go)

Tye Tribbet’s G.A. Hymn (Who else but GOD)… Yes! Who else but God could keep me sexless this long lol…. But really, A HUGE part of who I am is that I love GOD! FIERCELY! I believe that he died on the cross and rose again. He is my helper. healer. confidant. lover. educator. friend. father. I am a work in progress, yet I still strive to be as Christ-like as I can. I am a Christian. This is what I know for sure. (thanks Oprah, btw great sermon today… I was moved… DEAD UP)

And Who are you by Bilal. I play it. Again. And it gets to me. I am a lot of things. I will be a lot of things. I won’t be many things. I cannot wait to further explore, with you all, Who I am and what make me tick. What hurts me. What makes me laugh, cry, scream, fight, curse, write, love, lie, and a host of other things. Through my exploration, I hope you can figure out who you are too. With a little help…. FROM THE QUEEN’S MIND…

This was a cheesy ending… But hey, I felt it….


Love Hard. Live Harder.

The Queen


4 Responses to “Who I am: The Queen”

  1. DeAnna May 26, 2011 at 1:40 AM #

    it may have been a cheesy ending, but i enjoyed it =)

  2. Jackie May 26, 2011 at 1:46 PM #

    I absolutely love it Dean 🙂 please keep writing!

  3. Jocelyn May 26, 2011 at 8:09 PM #

    I love it….nothing cheesy about it all….. 🙂

  4. Tasha May 26, 2011 at 10:28 PM #

    LOL @ “who else but God could keep me sexless this long.” I feel it. Reading this reminded me of the way I think. My mind races…all over the place but yet the thoughts are still focused somehow. That’s weird, but it works for us. I dig it kid!

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